Thank you, Angie. You deduced well. Yes, I will go on record of my need to forgive and reconcile my ambivalence with God. My past disabling OCD chronic checking, washing, and obsessive thoughts/ fears could have come from genetics as much as the church. But they are forever intertwined.

Most are thankfully in the past. But my ambivalent feelings toward God and religion persist.

So yes, a 2nd story to come. I'm just relieved to get out the first and that you read it! And my focus is to not blame the past but to leverage how to overcome fears and believe in an accepting God.

Thanks again. Grateful to my fellow writing nerd. Am following.