Sandy, this may the part of the transition called "The suck" when you are in the middle of it. I feel for you. If you get fired from a job, you get the same relationship disappointment. Letting your brother and others know how you feel may be a good move - but only when you are ready. Short blurbs to people may help, too. Sounds like you will look back and say that the sacrifice was worth it. Praying for you. Fellow story nerd, Mark